My Body

My body is a cage

a flame

snow

It holds me back

is out of control

regarded as beautiful

when in fact;

it brings cold and destruction

is deemed amazing and just for a while

is highly anticipated, until my body

disappoints

My spirit is free

a mustang

butterfly

But my body just pins her wings down

My soul yearns

to learn

sing

But my body is arrogant and lazy

My body creates my identity to others

when it’s not who I am

who I want to be

who I ever was

Because when the scars run deeper than any well

when the bruises hurt more than any burn

when the tears shower down faster than any waterfall

My body smiles

-       -    14/05/09

Never Again

Never Again

03/11/08

I'm letting go

I'm saying goodbye

Never again shall I gaze

at your dark eyes

and wish they'd look back

For you are not mine

Never again

shall I stare

at your thick black hair

and wish to run my fingers through it

For you are not mine

Never again

shall I glance

at your arms

and wish you'd embrace me

For you are not mine

Never again

shall I peek

at your fingers

and wish they'd intertwine with mine

For you are not mine

Never again

shall I look at you

and wish you were mine

For you are not

But I am yours

I Love His All

A poem about what I thought was love for a guitar player :)

I Love His All

- 23/05/08

I love his smell

and his smile

His skill and his soul

I love his hair
and his eyes, 
and the way he cocks his eyebrow.
I love his ears, 
and how he tilts over 
to the left
to hear himself better. 
I love his feet, 
bare and free and seeking adventure,
like his spirit.
His hands
as they are and create
art.
I love how he folds
his ripped arms
across his broad chest
and how he opens them to his God.
I love how his mouth
is always left 
slightly open
when he's playing. 
I love his laugh and his accent. 
His voice soothes my soul
and my racing heart. 
His name etches itself deeper into me
whenever it is spoken. 
Because I love his all

It Pulls

I can't describe it really.

It's this incredible tug,

a force stronger than gravity.

It's a black hole that leads into the unknown.

Maybe that's everything,

maybe that's nothing.

It's angry.

It's sad.

It's overwhelmed..

It's overjoyed.

It's every emotion,

every inkling,

every thought,

every idea,

every passion.

It's all inside of me, all at once.

And it pulls.

It pulls down,

down into the ground,

into the earth.

Down from where I come,

down to where I'll go.

It pulls me to my grave.

It pulls me to my hell.

It pulls...

-28/05/10

Youth Of Today

 

It is quite sad

how with the youth of today

All youthfulness

seems to have slipped away

TVs replaced bikes

Computers; sticks and stones

Parents hardly worry

Little Johnny's always home

"Sex-Ed" used to start at 16

Now they know at 6

When will the media finally

Put away it's bag of tricks

10-year-olds are getting drunk

in skirts too short to tell

And so sex, drugs and rock 'n roll

start to cast their evil spell

But alas there is still hope

we must fight this to the end!

God forbid we ever get to a place

where their phone's their closest friend

Wait a minute…

-28/10/08

I Need

I love you

I choose to

there are few things you can do

to make me change my mind

When love is a feeling

it doesn't last

Emotions come and go

but decisions

remain

Which is why I choose

to believe

that one day

we'll work

and we'll last

How can one person

be so in love

and not get what they want

what they need

You

I want you

to want me

I need you

to need me

For me

You make me

the best possible version of me

That's what I want

what I need

I'd give it ALL

and give it again

To hear you say the words

"I need you too"

The words I need

 The words I want

The words I love

Which is why I'll wait

forever and a day

to hear you say

 "I need to talk to you"

The end of life as I know it

-31/10/08

Sitting Here

Sitting here

I'm going insane

I'm losing my brain

And it's not fun anymore

Sitting here

I wish I were not

Not when it's so hot

And it's not fun anymore

Sitting here

I think of you

We'd be a wonderful two

And it's not fun anymore

Sitting here

I wish you were gone

Or had never come

And it's not fun anymore

Sitting here

I wish you were mine

We'd have a great time

And it's not fun anymore

Sitting here

I'm falling apart

At the seams of my heart

And it's not fun anymore

Sitting here

I've sculptured my smile

It runs for a mile

And it's not fun anymore

Sitting here

I'm feeling the pain

Can't cry in the rain

And it's not fun anymore

Sitting here

I wish I were yours

But it can't be of course

And it's not fun anymore

Sitting here

I'm going insane

I'm losing my brain

And it was never fun

• 22/10/08

CS

I look at you

but turn my head

if I look in your eyes

Another part of me ends up dead

Your passion for life

and all things beautiful

Constantly reminds me

of how I'll never be your girl

You're leaving soon

back to your old means and ways

I'll never forget

you'll stay in my heart always

I hope she realises

how lucky she is

To have you by her side

to wipe away her tears

But I am left

crying alone

Whilst I wait and wait

for you to come home

• 22/10/08