What Does It Mean To Live In Durban?

Beautiful sunrises every morning

Going to see local bands in beautiful parks in your bikini

Having drinks on the edge of a pier :)

Feeling at home as soon as you see the Indian Ocean

Being totally free to express yourself

Taking nature walks

Taking as many mates with you as you can everywhere you go

Achieving the impossible every single day

My Love For You

My love for you

has not diminished

but rather grown

into something I don’t get

can’t comprehend

won’t understand

My love for you

has not faded

but rather radiates

from every angle

corner, gap

and space

My love for you

has not evaporated

but rather pours

from my eyes

the tears

flow

My love for you

didn’t get up and go

but has rather taken up permanent residence

in my heart

in my soul

there you stay

My love for you

has not died

no not in the least

but is rather stronger than ever

Just because I’m letting go

doesn’t mean I like it

Just because I’m bidding farewell

doesn’t mean I enjoy it

Just because I’m saying good-bye

doesn’t mean I want to

It simply means

I love you too much

to force my way into your heart

force her out

and tear you up.

My love, for you I would never.

-          - 04/11/08

My Body

My body is a cage

a flame

snow

It holds me back

is out of control

regarded as beautiful

when in fact;

it brings cold and destruction

is deemed amazing and just for a while

is highly anticipated, until my body

disappoints

My spirit is free

a mustang

butterfly

But my body just pins her wings down

My soul yearns

to learn

sing

But my body is arrogant and lazy

My body creates my identity to others

when it’s not who I am

who I want to be

who I ever was

Because when the scars run deeper than any well

when the bruises hurt more than any burn

when the tears shower down faster than any waterfall

My body smiles

-       -    14/05/09

Flaws

I know I don’t sing too well

so I guess I won’t serenade

I know I don’t have great stories to tell

so you won’t know how I was made

I’m pretty sure I’m not too smart

so we’re not two birds of a feather

I’m not that great at dance or art

so we’ll just avoid that altogether

I can’t read or write or compose

so there you’ll have to be strong

I have a big ass and a pointy nose

and don’t even try to tell me I’m wrong

I have many flaws

and of them I am aware

I wash my hands and bite my nails

compulsively, without a care

But my biggest fault of all

was falling in love with you

and hoping that at the end of my drop

you’ll catch me and love me too

-          17/11/08

Falling In Love

The call it falling for a reason

They call it falling because it’s unexpected

They call it falling because it’s exhilarating

They call it falling because it’s freeing

They call it falling because it’s quick

They call it falling because it’s clumsy

They call it falling because it’s careless

They call it falling because it’s a sensation

They call it falling because it doesn’t happen everyday

They call it falling because it’s incredible

They call it falling because it’s unforgettable

They call it falling because when it’s over you hit hard

They call it falling because you leave bruised

They call it falling because you leave scarred

They call it falling because you leave hurt

They call it falling because you usually regret it

They call it falling because you get up

and eventually you do it again

-         -   08/11/08

By Myself

I cannot bear to see you leave

but I’ll never make you stay

I hoped it would have been with me

that love would find a way

Alas I’ve wasted a year of life

and others that could’ve been

But how could I be happy with another

after it’s you I’ve seen

You’ve found your peace, made your home

with someone other than me

But I beg! Don’t leave me here!

I beg you on my knees!

I’m so confused! I’m torn apart!

Only you could do such a thing.

You’ve ripped me open, dissected my heart

and left me sitting…

But it’s not your fault

no, only I’m to blame

I chose to let your spirit into me

and free me from those that forced me tame

You bring out the best and worst in me

a dangerous spell to cast

I thought I’d finally met my match

but in the end, love lost

Love lost its passion, its fire, its zeal

the day you turned your back

Love lost its life, its soul, its all

and you’re not coming back

People sing of love that was

but what of love that never will be

Such a love I know too much of

in fact my tears could fill a sea

Such sheer remorse is usually felt

when a life is taken by force

How much worse should I feel then?

For you leave me by choice

I cannot bear to see you leave

but I’ll never make you stay

I make ask and beg and plea

but you’ll still go your way

-         -  08/11/08